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Wednesday, July 15th, 2009
1:14 pm	lazy day I feel somewhat better mentally than I did yesterday. I'm unsure as to the cause of my foggy cognitive ability, but happy to report that it is better today. However, I'm still feeling rather lethargic physically, and since I have nothing else on which to blame it, I'm choosing to attribute my apathy to the heat outside. The strange thing is though that Granny is feeling lazy also, and that rarely happens unless she is ill. I hope we're not getting sick; that would really suck. I can't think of anything else worthy of writing about at the moment, so I'm going to heed the beckoning of the nap that has persisted in attempting to captivate my attention since I awakened late this morning. Oh, before I go, I do have one final note. I'm usually not so formal in my speech or writing, but for a reason I have yet to discover I have suddenly taken a fancy to attempting to expand my vocabulary and also have been making a concerted effort to improve my grammar. Current Mood: bet you never would have guess (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
9:47 am	feeling out of sorts I don't know what's wrong with me today. I've been awake for a little over three hours, and I still feel very sluggish, not just physically but mentally as well. I just want to hide from the world for a little while and go back to sleep. Perhaps I could find something worthwhile to read and doze while I do so. It's a nice thought, but I seriously doubt it will happen because Granny has a hair appointment in a bit and Dorothy is coming to take her there and to the grocery store. I really don't feel like dealing with someone asking me a gazillion questions about why I am laying down rather than doing this or that. I know myself and my body well enough to know that when I am feeling this way it is best for me to keep my opinions or thoughts to myself because I am apt to bite someone's head off unintentionally. My brain is having difficulty focusing on one thing for more than a few minutes, and I am having trouble forming coherent sentences. I feel as though I've just awakened from some sort of anasthesia or like my brain is in some sort of fog or something. The best way i can think to describe it would be to say that I feel as though my brain is blurry or staticky. Weird explanation, I know, but it's the best i can do. Oh, thank goodness, Dorothy and Grannhy are gone now, so I think I'm going to lay down and rest for a little while. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Friday, July 10th, 2009
9:07 am	crazy day and even more crazy family members Okay, this goes in the category of wtf?, and although I'm a little surprised, I'm not quite sure why I feel that way when it is after all, my family that is involved in this whole nutty scenario. Okay, so a couple months back, I can't remember when but it was either Easter or Mothers' Day, although I think it was the latter, my aunt Juanita and her husband Von got very upset as a result of some modifications that Granny had put on her property because the property that as changed was property that they are supposed to get when my grandmother passes away. after coming to Bridgeport to attend church and eat lunch, and then hanging out here at Granny's house for the majority of the afternoon pretending everything was fine, Juanita proceeded to go home and then call my aunt Karen whose husband was involved in helping to modify the land and chewing her out and threatening to get a lawyer and suing them over the changes that were made to the land. Naturally, Karen was upset, and the next day when he found out what had transpired, so was my dad, because he had also helped with working on the land. Granny was also angry because the land isn't theirs yet, and if she has to go into a nursing home or somehting like that there's always the possibility that the land would need to be sold in order for her to get that type of care. Things seemed to calm down for a while, and Juanita has been here quite a few times since then, although her husband has not. That's nothing unusual though; like my dad and his wife Von rarely comes to visit much. But apparently... Everything was not as it seemed. While the majority of my family was out at the lake this past week for the reunion of my grandmother's brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts and uncles, juanita brought up the issue of the land again. However, this time, instead of talking to Granny about how she is feeling, or upsetting Karen again, she decides to talk to Dorothy and know telling who else about it. (For the record, Dorothy is my grandmother's sister-in-law.) You think that's the end of it? No. This morning Granny calls to check on Kaleb and Parker and see if Karen wants her to make macaroni and cheese for the boys for lunch. That's when she finds out that Karen and Juanita are coming to clean the kitchen and start helping her go through stuff. Nevermind the fact that Granny hasn't felt well the past few days, and that she was planning to rest today. So much for an advanced warning. I just don't get it. I mean, first of all, there is all this bickering about material things. That's all they are. In the end, they will break or disappear or be sold. I've got more to say but I took some Benedryl for my runny nose and itchy eyes, so I can't think straight all of a sudden. I will take a nap and come back and write some more about this later today. Just please send positive energy and/or prayers for Granny. This whole thing really upsets her, and no, I don't blame her in the least for feeling that way. Okay, I am back. Basically, since they aren't working, because Karen is out of school for the summer and juanita doesn't have a job, they decide to come here and start going through stuff. I heard Karen tell Granny that everyone knows they are working in the house, but I know how they work things, and rather than trying to set up a time when all of the kids and grandkids can be available to work through stuff, they more than likely just called and said something to the effect of "we're working in the house tomorrow to help Mama clean out stuff." Yeah, never mind that everyone else is at work. Never mind that because I'm here and I didn't stop them from doing this, it's going to be my ass that gets chewed by my dad and Beth. It just really hurts and angers me that my family members seem to think that material posessions are more important than establishing and maintaining relationships with people. I'm not surprised anymore, I'm just well, I don't know how to put it. I'm just not looking forward to the ass chewing I know that I'm going to get when Dad comes to check Granny's blood sugar in less than two hours from now. I understand why they didn't call him, because he gets so angry and no one can reason with him when he's that way, but at the same time I don't think they're handling it the right way. On the other hand I don't feel like it's my place to say anythig to them because they are older than I am. i guess the best way to describe how I feel would be to say that I am confused and I feel as though I'm stuck in the middle. Lol. That reminds me of that song; I don't know who did it, CCR maybe? Anyway, before you guys think i'm completely off my rocker--if you don't already--I'm going to shut up and oh boy, I get to wash more dishes covered in mouse poop. Oh joy!! Current Mood: confused (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 9th, 2009
8:49 am	a bit of a rant, or a tirade/venting session, whatever you wanna call it Dear senders of spam, 1. I am not opening an attachment from an unknown sender, no matter what file type it is. I may be dumb, but I'm not so stupid as to ruin my perfectly good computer or risk identity theft by downloading who knows what from someone who is too lazy to do anything besides create spam or bots that create and send spam to bother the rest of the world who actually are trying to do something with their lives. So, the likelihood of me opening your stupid attachment is 0.0000000000000000%. 2. I barely have enough money to buy the things i need or want for my own life, and I am a widow myself, so just because you tell some sad story about some supposed widow who lives in a foreign country and can't find work, I'm not going to send you money. No one sent me money after my husband passed away, and the last thing I felt like doing at the time was sending letters to people I didn't know to try to get them to pity me. 3. If you're going to tell a sad story, at least learn proper grammar. 4. The likelihood of me giving you any information about myself to claim a prize for a contest that I never entered in the first place is again, 0.00000000000%. 5. My final message: Get a life, or a job, or a hobby *BESIDES SENDING SPAM* and leave the rest of us alone!! We don't need or want to waste our valuable time and energy dealing with your worthless garbage!!!!! Current Mood: irritated Current Music: Granny talking in the kitchen (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
7:59 pm	busy day I woke up around eight this morning because Roy was supposed to be here around ten for us to work on Windows vista. I took a shower, and then since I wasn't very hungry thanks to a splitting headache with which I had awakened, I made an instant breakfast and came in here. I was bored, but didn't want to get too involved in email or anything of the like, so I just chatted on twitter and with Jordan on the phone. When Roy got here we worked with Adobe acrobat reader, and we also modified the msconfig portion of my computer to change the startup so that not so much garbage is running in the background. My computer starts up much faster now. He also showed me a command that allows a person to set the JAWS verbocity for a specific Webpage, which is awesome. Oh yeah, I remembered the other thing we wroked on now. It was the mixer in the volume, and learning how to utilize the information bar. When he and Jeff left, I had to lay down because the pain in my head was making me feel sick to my stomach. I napped for a bit until Jordan called me. Then we talked on the phone, and then I uninstalled one antivirus product and installed another. Let's just say that for the record, I think trend micro needs to make some drastic improvements in the category of accessibility. While the antivirus software was installing, I called Freedom Scientific and ordered JAWS 10 as well as a software maintenance agreement. Yes jpgreer I know you will be disappointed, but well if you choose not to speak to me again because of that it's your decision, not mine. The funds were available and I will need to upgrade eventually anyhow, and since there is only so much oney I am allowed to have in my account thanks to the social security administration, I figured I might as well go ahead with the upgrade. Since I've done that, I've mainly just been chatting with friends, listening to solsticesinger broadcast, visiting pages on caringbridge, and reading email. The Rangers game starts in less than an hour, and although the pain in my head is much less severe than it has been earlier today, I am seriously contemplating taking a shower to see if that helps with the sinus pressure across the bridge of my nose. I'm sure I'll update again sometime soon. Current Mood: headachy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 7th, 2009
5:20 pm	venting Edit: I got the prescriptions because Dad had to go back to town to get something for his wife. However, I still would like to know what a pharmacist would say if it were a medicine that could determine life or death. I'm irritated! I specifically called my prescriptions in at nine this morning so Dad could get them this afternoon on his way home from work, and they're not ready at six pm this evening. In my mind, that's bullshit! If it was a prescription I needed for life or death purposes and I passed away, what would they do then? I'm talking to jp_greer and he says it's because I called my prescriptions in and they take less priority than if I were in the store staring them down. Well excuse me for asking to be born blind and being unable to drive a car. I still want to ask a pharmacist what they would do if someone called in a prescription they needed, or hell even if they dropped it off and then went to run errands and the prescription was life or death and they didn't have it ready. Current Mood: full (Comment on this)
11:31 am	Writer's Block: Newsworthy What news source do you use most often? View other answers I use http://www.twitter.com/breakingnews. It's quick, easy, and i don't have to read the garbage I have no interest in. Occasionally I'll use the AP wire, but sometimes I have trouble getting that one to load. I think I won't have as many problems with stuff like that when I finish getting all the dang windows updates installed. I thought i had finished last night, but apparently I was mistaken. Oh well. It's not the first time I've been wrong about something, and I'm certain it won't be the last. Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 4th, 2009
1:16 am	jumbled thoughts I dont really know what to think or how to feel right now. I know i love Jordan very much, but this weekend was the weekend Doug and I met, and I still miss him. Right now my heart is hurting and I am feeling clingy. Jordan is going through a lot right now--I don't want to say any more than that because it's not my place--and the last thing he needs at the moment is a clingy, needy girlfriend. I am alone until Sunday, so I am trying my best to distract myself and not think too much. The worst thing is this damn headache that won't go away. It hurts from just below my left eyebrow to behind my left ear. The pain will lessen a bit, and then become sharp and stabbing again, almost taking my breath away or making me feel sick to my stomach. Laying down helps some, although the pain is still there. i don't have any Imatrex, so that's not an option. I've been trying to be distracted by friends, music and caringbridge, but the pain is becoming intense again. I want to lay down, but yet that limits my ability to distract myself. I am so irritated with myself; I wanted to be there for Jordan with all he is going through this weekend and I feel like I have utterly failed. I'm sure my aunt Beth went back to the lake and told Granny and everybody else that I was in my nightgown when she was here this evening. I don't know why Granny thinks it is necessary to dress even when you feel like shit, but that's always been a rule here. I don't want to wish these headaches on anybody, but it would be nice if they were more understanding. Yeah, I know that I can't control the way other people feel or how they behave, but I'm only human and it still feels frustrating. Jordan, if you read this, never doubt my love for you. I am here anytime you need me. I am sorry for bawling last night on the phone; I know you must be sick of hearing me talk about Doug. I know you are not him, and I love you for who you are. I think the thing that hurts the most for me is that my family wants me to forget. I don't know how I am supposed to forget one of the most wonderful times in my life? How can I forget someone who accepted me for me for the first time in my life and who made sure to let me know each and every day how much he loved me? Do they want me to forget because they are jealous, or is it because after they worked so hard to destroy our relationship, I finally stood up to them and said enough is enough? Is it too much to ask for someone to actually acknowledge the fact that July 6 means something to me? I guess that's wrong and selfish for me to ask, but it's honestly how I feel. No, I don't expect the world to stop, but a "how are you doing today?" or a phone call or instant message would be nice. I have always wanted flowers for that day; I don't know why; it's stupid and silly and selfish but I guess it's because the only people who have sent me flowers are my parents, and I think that was more because they felt obligated to do so than anything else. I really dislike it when people are friendly towards me or buy or give me gifts because they feel obligated to do so. Honestly, if they feel that way I wish they wouldn't even bother. I'm beginning to get tired, and the words are starting to run together in my mind as I prepare to type them, so I think I'm going to stop writing for now. Oh, before I forget, happy Fourth of July everyone, and happy birthday solstice_singer. I hope you have a wonderful year with lots of love, laughter and joy. Current Mood: headachy Current Music: the air conditioner in the hallway (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
11:42 pm	sleepy update I haven't been online for the past few days because I have been unable to connect to the Internet. I am not sure what the deal is, but the technician is supposed to be here tomorrow to upgrade my equipment. We'll see, but I'm not holding my breath. Five years ago today, I met my husband. I feel so torn because I still miss him at times, but I also love Jordan very much. i'm working to write the story of how we met because for some reason I feel like I'm supposed to share it. I want to write it while Granny is at the lake because I think the majority of my family members want me to forget Doug and the love the two of us shared. That means I have until Sunday to finish. I can't really think of much else to say. I visited a few caringbridge pages tonight, but am feeling rather tired now so I'm going to go to bed. If my net still works in the morning, I'll visit some more until the technician from the ISP makes an appearance. *Fingers crossed.* Oh, before I forget, Donald, Katie and Jarrod's paternal grandfather, made it through the surgery to repair his fractured femur. He will be transferred to a nursing home in Bridgeport for rehab sometime soon. I apologize for keeping everyone hanging in regard to that. Okay, I am off to the land of blankets and pillows, and hopefully a sweet dream or two also, or at least the elimination of the headache that I have been fighting the majority of the day today. Current Mood: headachy (Comment on this)
Friday, June 26th, 2009
8:52 pm	updte on Donald The doctors decided they have to risk doing surgery on DOnald because if they don't he will be bedridden for the rest of his life. I don't know when the surgery will take place but I am guessing tomorrow since Jarrod was still at the lake a little while ago when i called out there to tell Granny something. I don't know if I will hear any more news regarding his condition, but if i do I will be sure and update here again if I can get connected to the Internet long enough to actually write and post something. The Internet company still hasn't shown up to upgrade my system; for the record that is since Wednesday that I have been waiting. Anyway, from the way Granny understood the surgery, they're going to put a rod in his leg using an epidural and X-ray, I'm assuming floroscopy although I don't know that for sure. My guess is that they are going to use the epidural to try to avoid having to put him under general anasthesia. That's about all the news here I have for the moment I suppose, so I'm going to go back in the other room and watch the rest of the Rangers game. Have a wonderful weekend everybody. Current Mood: okay Current Music: the air conditioner (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 25th, 2009
4:37 pm	sad update Granny just heard from Beth a few minutes ago. Donald isn't strong enough to withstand the surgery to repair his femur, and they're watching him for a bit for bleeding since he's on blood thinners. The family is trying to decide which nursing home to take him to for a while. His wife Verda doesn't drive, so they're trying to decide if it'll be less of a hassle to take him to Decatur so Beth can do the driving, or to Bridgeport and let her daughter Judy do the driving. That sounds really really painful to me, having a broken femur and not being strong enough to have it set. I'm kinda in shock and don't really know what else to say. Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
9:46 am	thoughts for Thursday I finally got rid of the headache that I had since Tuesday morning when I woke up after taking a shower when the college world series finished last night. I still have a little bit of sinus pressure, but it's nothing like it was then, and I don't have the sharp stabbing pains below my eyebrows or at my temples. The Internet guy showed up late yesterday. When he got here, he didn't have the necessary equipment to upgrade my system, so he said he would be here today. Who knows if that's true or not, but I'm not holding my breath. It's just that if he doesn't show up today, I am SOL until Granny gets back from the family reunion after the fourth of July. Texas lost their game last night, which means LSU won the college world series championship. I am not happy about this fact, but there is nothing I can do to change it. There are two people I know who could use your prayers/positive thoughts/whatever else you want to call it. The first is my grandmother's aunt Lois. She is a heart patient as well as a diabetic who is on dialysis. When Granny talked to her (Granny's) youngest sister Mary earlier this morning, she learned that their Aunt Lois had been hospitalized with fluid in or around her lungs. I'm not really sure which, but if I hear an update, I'll be sure to keep you guys posted. The second is Katie and Jarrod's paternal grandfather Donald. He fell this morning and broke his femur. Right now he's in the hospital in Decatur, but because he has a history of heart problems, they were trying to get in touch with his cardiologist to find out the best place to transfer him. It's going to be very hot this weekend. I am thankful I am not going to the reunion, because it's so hot outside that it's difficult to breathe, and Karen's plants are already beginning to die, in spite of the rain we got week before last. I can't think of anything else to say. I've been awake since before seven, and for some reason I'm still feeling rather sleepy, so I think I'm going to go vegetate on Papa Bo's bed and watch Wimbledon until the Internet guy shows up. I'd rest in here, but I want to watch the tennis matches, and Granny is washing my sheets and pillowcases. Update: I just heard from Beth on my cell phone, since Granny has been on her land line seemingly nonstop since around eight this morning. They're taking Donald to Harris Southwest, I think she said via life flight. She said she's going to try to work the rest of the day today. I'm sure we will hear more as the day progresses, so I'll keep everyone updated as I can. Update to the update: Beth called back again. They're taking Donald to Harris downtown, and will confer with the cardiologists there. The reason they're doing this is because he has a pacemaker and a valve replacement. Granny thinks that he has something else going on with his heart too but she can't remember what. Update to the update to the update: They're taking Donald to Harris Southwest because Harris downtown doesn't have any available beds. Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
12:02 am	discombobulated entry This entry is apt to be rather scattered, so please bear with me. I've been dealing with a migraine for over twelve hours, and although I've taken medication for it and gotten some relief, the pain is still hanging around. I'm too mentally drained to try to write this entry in a coherent paragraph format, so I'm going to do a list. First, a bit of a description, and feel free to give feedback if you've had a similar experience: My headache is quite strange. There's pressure, like a sinus headache, but then at the same time there are occasionally sharp stabbing pains in one of my temples or directly below my eyebrow. It feels like someone jabbing me with an ice pick or the pointed end of a screwdriver. Because the stabbing pains are short in duration, I can cope with those fairly well, but the buildup of the pressure across the bridge of my nose begins to become quite painful and starts to make me feel sick to my stomach if I sit up for too long. I was trying to take a nap yesterday afternoon in an attempt to get some relief before the Longhorns game at six when Jarrod came in here and started hitting me in the head with whatever objects he could find lying around on my bed or the floor. When he does stuff like that, it makes me want to wish that he had migraines so that he understood how they feel or just punch him where the sun don't shine so maybe he'll go away and leave me alone. The family reunion is this coming weekend. I'm not going. I have no interest in being there, and the first of next month will be three years ago that I met my late husband. I really have no desire to be in a place where I have no privacy, and besides that, hardly anyone acknowledges me. I don't have any fun being outside in sweltering heat for a week and being bored to tears when I can be in the comfort of air conditioner and minus the company and chaos that comes along with it and be bored stiff here at home. I'll be thirty-one in three months, actually a little less than that, and it's high time for Granny to realize she can save her guilt trip frequent flyer miles for someone else. The Internet people are coming here later today. They are supposed to upgrade my equipment, whatever that means. It probably means they'll charge me more money for it, or maybe that's just me being cynical, who knows. Okay, I want to end this on a positive note. The Longhorns won game three of the college world series, and thus will be playing for the championship against Louisiana State University tonight. Current Mood: headachy (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 21st, 2009
10:30 pm	feeling kinda sad even though I know I shouldn't... My dad raised me as a single parent twice in my life, once from the age of about fifteen months until i was three, and then from ten until fifteen. Although we have had our differences, I very much appreciate the many lessons he taught me and the sacrifices he made. However, i have a beef... Today is Fathers' Day. Without telling me, Dad went out of town to watch my nephews play baseball. This happens almost every weekend, and for the most part I have grown accustomed to the fact that my dad has chosen his wife and her oldest son and his family over me. Again, this is something that has gone on for a while. I think it started when Dad's current wife moved into the house with Dad and I bringing her youngest son and his girlfriend with her and rearranging my bedroom in the process and just got worse with the birth of my first nephew almost twelve years ago. I had no idea Debbie and her son and his girlfriend at the time were living there until Dad picked me up from here the day before I was to start my sophomore year of high school. Needless to say things got off to a rough start between Debbie and me. Anyway, I digress... I should have known when he was willing to go pick me up something for lunch and bring it here on Friday that something was up, but the ditz that I am I didn't put two and two together until this morning when I realized Beth was taking Granny's sugar instead of Dad. I know that Dad and Debbie aren't obligated to tell me where they are going and what they are doing at all times. I guess I am selfish because I wanted the option to spend time with my dad for Fathers' Day and that choice was taken away from me. All day long I keep hearing Debbie say that I chose to alienate my dad and her and her boys and my nephews when I decided to marry Doug. Then there is a part of me that says that everyone makes choices in life that someone at some point is going to disagree with and that Debbie is just using my marriage to Doug as an excuse. Part of me knows that her goal was, is and has always been to alienate Dad from as many people as possible. It frustrates me that he refuses to see this. I know there are quite a few other family members Dad doesn't have much to do with because of her, and yet it still hurts that he has allowed her to treat him this way. I know that he doesn't want to go through another divorce--hell, the one with Brenda almost destroyed him--and yet she seems to be using him and trying to make him into some sort of puppet or robot or something. I know I am a grown woman and that I am no longer a child. I'm fully aware that I can't expect him to do the things for me that he did when I was a kid, and yet at the same time I want to be able to talk to him or just spend time together fishing or watching baseball or something. I guess maybe i'm just selfish because I still feel sad, angry and hurt sometimes over the situation. I realize I am the one who called the police the night Debbie was taken to jail, and that I chose to marry Doug and continue my relationship with him in spite of the fact that my father disapproved. I understand there are consequences to each and every decision we make in life, no matter how large or small it may be. I just wish I didn't still hurt and feel sad and lonely as a result of the way other people behave towards me because of the above choices. i think perhaps being by myself for the majority of the day today allowed me to ponder a lot of different things and I was hoping that writing this down would help to clear my head. It didn't, but I am curious as to what anyone who reads this jumbled mess of an entry has to say about it. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Friday, June 19th, 2009
10:51 pm	lol Okay, I don't know if anyone but me will find this amusing, but I'm writing it here anyway. I was having problems connecting to the Internet earlier so I called my ISP. The tech was very unprofessional, obviously crunching something while talking to me and trying to sniff to keep his nose from running. I was trying to ignore that, and then he asked me a question that was kinda visual, so I proceeded to tell him I was totally blind. Then he says, and this is an exact quote: "Why do you need the Internet if you can't see to use it? How do you do that?" It was all I could do not to burst out laughing so I was really glad he had to put me on hold again so I could compose myself before attempting an explanation. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
9:37 pm	frustrated and confused I really don't understand people sometimes. There is a certain person that I thought was my friend who turned out not to be. I have given this person numerous chances over the course of several years and tried my best to overlook the things about her that irritated me. I finally got a belly full of her bullshit and I've had enough. Said person believes the reason I behave the way I do toward her is because I talk to her ex, but that isn't the case. I was beginning to see her true colors prior to that. I have given up attempting to discuss the issues that bother me about said person because this results in her being defensive and trying to justify her actions. I have tried my best to let said person know I no longer wish to speak to her, by ignoring her on MIRC when I go there to hang out, deleting her from my friends page on livejournal, and blocking her on all of the messenger programs I have as well as on twitter, and now she has begun to comment negatively on what I write here. It is as if for some reason, she is determined to try to hurt me despite the fact she is still claiming to be a friend. I would have thought that the actions I have taken would clue this person in to the fact that I no longer wish to have anything to do with her, but apparently I was mistaken. I am trying my best to behave in a mature manner but there is a big part of me that wants to reply to one of her negative comments with something to the effect of please leave me alone! It's my life and my journal and I don't want or need the negativity. I can no longer pretend that the way this person talks to and about me are okay. So here it is, to said person who shall remain nameless... I wish you the best in life. I hope you find happiness in whatever you do, whoever you're with, and wherever you go. I have forgiven you for the things that have been said and done to hurt me, but please do not contact me any more. I am sorry for ending things this way and I apologize if this hurts, but I know we have mutual friends some of whom I have no other way of contacting and I would like for them and the rest of the world to see my side of the situation and know that as far as I am concerned, my so-called friendship with you is over. Current Mood: not sure right now (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 16th, 2009
9:31 pm	update on Kaleb I can't remember if Granny said Kaleb ended up with ten or twelve stitches in his leg. Also, I found out he was playing with the tractor apparently unsupervised. I don't know if it was a toy tractor or what, but knowing his parents, I doubt it was a toy. I think it's kinda irresponsible of them not to set limits like only letting him do certin things when his dad is at home etc, but I can't say anything because that will just make Karen mad at me and I'll get a lecture about how I shouldn't judge other people when I've never raised any kids of my own. Anyway, he can't jump on the trampoline or play in the hose/swimming pool until the stitches come out, and I'm sure his wrestling with Parker is out too. He was already complaining of being bored yesterday afternoon. I think he and his brother are going to his paternal grandmother's house tomorrow. The lucky dogs have Rangers tickets tonight, so that's where they are now. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Monday, June 15th, 2009
9:10 am	oh my... What a way to start off the summer. Karen just called Granny because they were supposed to take Kaleb and Parker to Taco Bell for lunch so Parker and Kaleb could play on the indoor playground there. And then... Kaleb was, I guess on the tractor with his dad, doing no telling what, and he somehow cut a huge gash in his leg. Karen called their primary care doctor who told them to take him to the emergency room. This is the same cousin who broke his arm in either March or April, I can't remember which now. The worst of it all is they have a swimming pool and he won't be able to swim, and on top of that one of his favorite activities to do with his brother Parker is get on the trampoline and spray each other with the water hose. Oh, what fun this will be, especially since this child has absolutely no concept of the word no, especially when it comes from his mother. Oops, I didn't just write that did I? Well, it's true, and while I've never raised kids of my own, i do know that if they are not taught to respect their parental figures early on in life, it's an uphill battle to get them to respect their parents later. I can't say that out loud though without starting a fight, so I just write it in my journal. Current Mood: blah (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 11th, 2009
3:46 pm	update I was going to write and ask for positive thougyhts/prayer for my aunt Beth last night and also give everyone an update on Gerald Jordan and Jimmy Brewr, but we had quite the storm blow through this area last night, and I'm just now able to connect to the Internet again, so I'm writing the update now. Both Jimmy and Gerald made it through their surgeries. There is a possibility that Gerald will come home tonight. The news for Beth however is not so positive. she went to the doctor yesterday afternoon as a result of waking up with a fever of 103, and she was diagnosed with strep throat. When Granny called to check on her late this morning, she was still running a fever of 101. i'm really hoping that Granny doesn't catch it, since I know people who are diabetic tend to have weaker immune systems. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Monday, June 8th, 2009
10:14 pm	prayer request Please pray for Gerald Jordan, the paternal grandfather of my cousins Mason and Cason. He was sent to the hospital last week because he kept passing out, and the doctors found blood in his stomach but were unable to determine the source. They thought it was caused by one of his medications, but they sent him home. Today, he was admitted to the hospital again. Tomorrow, he is being transferred to a bigger hospital in Dallas because they have found varicose veins in his esophagus, and if they burst, he will bleed to death. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)